My marriage

Well I have been married to the greatest guy for almost 10 years now. We only really dated for around 3mo when we decided we never wanted to be apart. He is active duty Army and I have stuck by him through all the deployments, schools, and trips away. I have given him 4 great kids, kept his house cleaned, cooked him dinner almost every night, and loved him unconditionaly. Lately though it seems as if things are starting to fall apart. He never really wants to spend any time with me and I feel like he is sort of treating me like a maid and a babysitter. He is the lkove of my life and I cant picture my life without him but, I dont think he feels the same for me anymore. I try to talk to him and he just blows me off. I dont know what to do...I love him.

This is new....so bare with me :)

Well, this is my first blog. Not really sure what any of you are going to want to hear about but, I'm gonna give this a shot. Things are pretty normal around here today. After lunch, and I get the kids in thier rooms for quiet time, I've gotta sweep and mop the floor and FINALLY get a shower. I have realized in the past few weeks that my obsession with being clean has definately tappered off. I am lucky if I get a shower every other day. I know it sounds kinda gross but, with 4 kids, a dog, a house to take care of, and 3 meals a day to prepare, by the time I could actually shower (after the kids are in bed) all I want to do is loaf on the couch with Doug or go to bed. I have alot of people ask me how I can handle 4 kids, especially when Doug is deployed, and I tell them its all about routine. I dont get much time for myself but, my kids are happy and healthy and to me thats whats most important.

I am a little feaked out about going back to school. I have no idea what to exspect or if I will be able to remember anything I learned in high school (its been 11 years). Well, its lunch time so I better get off here and get my butt in gear before I have 4 hungry kids hounding me for food!!